The kids who “didn’t need therapy”

Highschool wasn’t easy for me.

I had been an outcast for as long as I could remember.(also, my father had died the year before I started highschool and my mom started dating some country hick asshole 3 months later) I was angry, I hated everyone, and I had a short fuse.  I looked for reasons to get violent. Not like they were very hard to come by; the assholes liked to push me.

Eventually, I caught the attention of the school advisors. So they sent me to the school therapist. Which turned out to be the best thing that ever happened to me. I finally had someone who I could talk to who didn’t judge me. Someone who taught me, more than just how to control my anger, but how to let it go. I haven’t lashed out at anyone since.

Anyway, I guess I had always thought that, because I was the one who needed therapy that I was somehow the standard for “anger issues.”

But I’m in college now, and I’ve realized that that’s not true. You see, I wasn’t the standard for anger issues. I was just upfront about it. I didn’t hide it, because I hated the people around me so much and it’s not like I had a reputation to lose. So I got help.

What I realize now is that I wasn’t the standard, I was the exception. I got help. I got better. I learned to control myself.

It was the kids who stayed quiet that never got better.

These kids were the ones who “did well” in high school. They had enough friends to blend in. They got along with people enough that they didn’t get in trouble. They were model students. they kept their anger bottled up like good little boys and girls.

Those angry boys and girls become angry adults. They scream at their friends over stupid shit. they become psychopathically angry over the tiniest inconveniences.They let their anger out at any opportunity they can find. Like goddamn children.

My current roommate likes to yell at me if I ask her a question more than once. She yelled at me for watching a movie without her, even though I asked her if she didn’t mind before hand. She saw a bug and then yelled at me for asking her where the bug was because she “didn’t like the way I said it” and it “sounded like I was doubting her”.

My other roommate broke his hand because, after studying for a quiz in one of our classes, the teacher decided to cancel the quiz. After class, he punched a locker repeatedly until he broke his hand.

She likes to abuse others, he likes to abuse himself.

Anyway, I don’t know what the point of all this was. I just felt like saying it. They’re both still my friends. But I also know that, even though they would never say it out loud, they both think they’re a little bit better than me because at least neither of them ever needed ”therapy”. As if me needing someone to talk to about all the bullshit in my life some how made me a weak person?

Well at least I’m brave enough to admit when I need help. And at least I’m strong enough to control my anger, without needing to yell at my friends or injure myself.

You petulant fucking children.

the-morning-and-the-evening-star:

allsnargents:

"Do you have to be so vulgar about men, like they’re pieces of meat?"

I HAVE WAITED SO LONG FOR THIS GIF SET

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I haven’t posted anything in such a fucking long time. christ. let that be a lesson to you kids, don’t go to college. it’ll eat your free time.
anyway, sourin.

I haven’t posted anything in such a fucking long time. christ. let that be a lesson to you kids, don’t go to college. it’ll eat your free time.

anyway, sourin.

japanaddictionn:

Pilots team is Haruka, Makoto, Rei and Nagisa! As for the police team is Rin, Sousuke, Momo-chan and Ai-Chan! 
All looking so hawt *v*

japanaddictionn:

Pilots team is Haruka, Makoto, Rei and Nagisa! As for the police team is Rin, Sousuke, Momo-chan and Ai-Chan! 

All looking so hawt *v*

yama-z-aki:

a summary of episode 3

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cherryqueenx:

midnightxdiamond:

chandeluresinitaly:

ceunhae:

miragecoordination:

mischiev0usmelanch0lic:

houseofgoose:

Hey SAI users
Get your acrylic brush and give it these settings
Just
Just trust me



At first I was like “meh” but then I blended it… damnd. I normally do cel-shading but this is pretty sweet.

oh.my.god. I like this

Reblogging for refs later

omg i like this

cherryqueenx:

midnightxdiamond:

chandeluresinitaly:

ceunhae:

miragecoordination:

mischiev0usmelanch0lic:

houseofgoose:

Hey SAI users

Get your acrylic brush and give it these settings

Just

Just trust me

image

At first I was like “meh” but then I blended it… damnd. I normally do cel-shading but this is pretty sweet.

oh.my.god. I like this

Reblogging for refs later

omg i like this

image

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Cleavage...
Cleavage...

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dickgraysonsrightbuttcheek:

rei and rin being friends

momotarou noticing rin’s cleavage 

rin and sosuke fighting using paper rock scissors 

this whole episode

rin this season

homefurever:

We need help raising funds for our beautiful shepherd puppy with a broken jaw. https://www.youcaring.com/brokenjaw

Our director received an urgent call today (7/14/14) about an injured German shepherd hiding under coils in the back of a warehouse. She left immediately to help this poor girl.

We went to our normal vet only to find that she has a dislocated, fractured and infected jaw due to head trauma; most likely hit by a car. She has two teeth missing from her bottom jaw and a possible piece of her jaw missing. She is bleeding from the whites of her eyes and needed to be rushed to OVRS for immediate surgery. Please say a prayer, donate and share our newest rescue.

For direct donations, please contact Oakland Veterinary Referral Services at (248) 334-6877. Thanks so much to all who have donated so far.

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yama-z-aki:

yama-z-aki:

someone restrain me

this only had 100 notes an hour ago what the fuck happened

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becausebirds:

An owl gets inside the house. The Owl Whisperer™ tries to get it back outside again. x

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